Confidence

There is an air in some people
that makes me want to know
How they are so strong inside
and where did my confidence go?

It should be part of me now
I have been on this earth so long
But why did my ego take a break
and leave me so un-strong!

I enter a room like a swan now
Poised but with heart banging inside
and whilst I am paddling like a mad fool
from the outside I look like I glide

It isn't that I want to fool you
or pretend that I am stronger than you think
but I don't want you to hurt me
or let you know that actually I'm weak.


I have never been one for large crowds or for pushing myself to the front although many of my colleagues and friends often say that I come across as a very strong, confident person. Actually underneath it all I am painfully shy and find any public events a scary prospect. I am not afraid to admit this but I do hate letting those that I know may take this trait for granted know!